thinking out loud..again

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  one thing I learned with papa's cancer was that life
  would still go on....but not the same
  we took papa's cancer and normalized it
  we created a whole new way of living each day
  we had moments when we pretended that things were the same
  as they always had been before the cancer came
  but the cancer became just a normal way of life
  other people seemed more intimidated by it than we were
  we danced with out music pouring our love into each other
  and when he died the dance stopped
  now there is only me to hear the songs
  that we listened too
  and now I hear the silence
  and the laughter is missing
  and I feel the dull ache of loneliness
  but I have learned that
  it is ok -not to be ok-
  and that I will heal......
  the sun will come out again
  the rainbow will shine after the rain
  and in the quiet I will renew my connections
  of inspiration, and my enthusiasm and the
  silence will become golden=
  and I will dance again
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  huggles me, Meme