all is quiet except our hearts ..........

• DEC- 12 is our Wednesday night bible study
• we go as both of us do want not to stay home
• we already went through the ''telling the dog'' which
• only dog lovers can relate too- sigh-
• I do not want to tell any one as some how the telling
• makes everything more real but David tells
• everyone- he cannot stop talking and we let him so
• in fact, we did not have a bible study- but we pray
• we try to reassure David that it is possible the
• doctor is wrong- at first, folks think that maybe
• we got it wrong but after explaining just how and what
• the doctor said - they realize what we heard was what we heard.
• we do not tell our kids yet, leaving it for another day-
• there is a lot of emotions just in the telling...
• Dec. 13, I call the doctor's office to see when we should
• be hearing anything as when we left the office Dr. V-------
• said we should hear with in the day=
• the nurse tells me the doctor is now on a holiday
• until Dec. 18 but she had not faxed anything out for David
• she says she will look and see what she can do.....
• we struggle through the day wondering how to
• keep on keeping on....
• Dec. 14- call the doctor's office again but yesterday's nurse
• is not in today so this nurse says she will look into it--
• we do not hear back again today=sigh-
• David phones the kids and I can tell from his side of the conversation
• that they are upset but he keeps reassuring them
• that everything is going to be all right---
• dad's are good at that sort of thing
• David is now very yellow and we can see it in
• or out of the light-
• Dec.. 15 --our Christmas supper at the church
• David is quiet and eats very little- he tells a few
• people but not all as he is unwilling to spoil
• the Christmas atmosphere--
• however a lot of folks notice his new color
• we stay for a while until Papa leans over and says
• "" I need to go home''-- I know he is feeling bad as he
• was always the last man out of the door- sigh
• we come home and both lay down-----
• neither one of us can seem to stand up physically for long
• our minds and bodies and prayers are exhausted
• -we know that we will not hear anything tomorrow
• as it is Sunday so decide to try and fake some joy
• for the grand kids- they will come for the day
• we do not change their plans as
• we need them too..........
• Dec. 16 is a hard day for David
• he does make it to church but
• is unable to keep his commitment to take
• the grands on their annual Christmas shop
• so the boy who is a friend to Miss Ashley
• takes us down town and papa stays home alone-
• after giving us his charge card-- LOL
• we go to the local dollar store and I turn the kids
• loose with their lists and tell them to have fun
• I stay with them,
• of course but my mind is at home with Papa
• I give the kids as much time as I can manage
• and then we go back to papa- non of us really
• want to leave him alone for long-
• he sits and enjoys
• watching all the kids show off their presents
• and supervises some of the wrapping and hiding
• --------to be continued ----------