• I will continue soon with the rest of our story
• but did want to blog how things are for me
• right now
• I seem to be in a holding pattern
• not falling backward but not
• stepping forward-
• I did make some decisions this week
• about discontinuing some of the church
• functions for a time
• not that there is any thing wrong with any of them
• but this seems to be where my deepest wounds
• of missing papa are
• there is nothing anyone did or did not do
• or said or did not say
• it is just a matter of this is the place
• where papa and I spend most of our time
• when we were out -- at--
• I did learn at our grief group that some times
• we have to let some things go for a time
• until I am healed enough to accept
• that things are different now
• my heart hurts the most there
• and I need to find ways to ease the pain
• I am looking for some things to do
• in this town
• for a single older christian lady
• so far, there is not too much
• that does not require going to places
• that serve alcohol
• so I may be reading a lot of books and blogs this winter
• any way this is where I am right now-
• and also keeping in mind that
• THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD
• AND IF I HAVE A SEASON OF QUIET
• I WILL STILL BE BLESSED