A NEW DAY IN DECEMBER

One good thing about not sleeping is-- that is not hard to wake up-- but while I cried alone I also cried out to the Lord for strength- to get through this ordeal- I was not thinking of a journey yet- in fact it reminded me of a title of a book by Phil Callaway---WHO PUT THE SKUNK IN THE TRUNK? or LEARNING TO LAUGH WHEN LIFE STINKS- (A funny but serious book )
On December 20 I was still the me who had reached the fine age of 59- been married to David for just over 41 of those years- We went every where together - we were known as David and Marilyn and where one was- the other was sure to follow- I do not drive due to eye sight conditions and so when I needed to go- David would take me- he was a faithful taxi driver - and quite enjoyed the role- I also did not have good health and did not have a lot of physical strength - I am just under a 100 pounds and have weighted approximately the same for the last 40 years- and I was keeper of the home- and we were best friends.
I remember so clearly the Lord telling me that He would give me manna strength for today and all the days to come- no more or no less than I would need for each day to come- and that I would be able to do what was needed - this became my daily prayer- Lord, give me manna strength and our motto became THE LORD IS OUR SHEPHERD- and yes, you will see the manna strength in all the days of our journey together living with cancer.
David and I planned to talk about our future as we now knew it as soon as we were together but God had other plans- David was kept so busy with nurses and tests and visitors that we had no time alone that day- and all the pastors that he knew came to see him and pray out loud and read scripture- David just had to lay there and everyone else did for him- he still was not allowed to shave due to possible bleeding and much to his horror he was not allowed to put his teeth back in as again there was a chance of bleeding- all we could do is laugh as there was not time for tears- (there was a man in the other bed who told his wife he had never heard so many sermons in one day )
His doctor came in and told him that his vitamin k was increasing and if all went well he would put a stint in on Friday to start moving the poison from the jaundice in David's system- He told us that David was very sick even with out the cancer and the next couple of days would be tough - then he told us that was the stint was in--a cancer doctor would be in and they would start a plan for treatment- he explained why surgery was not an option and if all went well the doctor hoped that David would live for one to two years- David took the news well considering the source and we both just held hands and listened to the doctor talk about stints and stages and treatments- and we forgot everything he told us.......but we were ready to go forward in spite our our fears-
THE LORD IS GOOD. WHEN TROUBLE COMES, HE IS A STRONG REFUGE. AND HE KNOWS EVERYONE WHO TRUSTS IN HIM. NAHUM 1:7
I went home and slept :-)
huggles me, Meme
papa's favorite saying became: When the tough get going- they go get icecream--( cancer could not take his sence of humor)