WOUNDS INTO SCARS

I am beginning to notice that on my widow journey that some of my wounds are turning into scars-
I was troubled about this at first as my mind sees healing as becoming the same as before but as I was reading
about Jesus when he returned to his disciples -- He still had his scars - and by those scars we know that we will be healed--
I realize now that I too will have scars which at times I will show others or at times others will recognize in me-
It is a journey of unknown discoveries- a journey I could not take with out having first taking the marriage vows and then the journey of two to become one -
sometimes I just want to quit hurting but the wounds must remain open until they are clean and safe so that scars will not need to be reopened or cause infection(bitterness)
- we would not want stitches to close a wound if the wound was not cleaned first-and to be given something for the pain--God gave us his promises to help with the pain and the healing- and gave us our grief - (we cannot have grief with out love)
I am learning that grief is a good thing.....
I am learning that with healing of grief does not change my love for David -- and it does not change God's love for me-He collects our tears in a bottle- psalm 56:8
I need to learn to : TO REST IN THE LORD, AND WAIT PATIENTLY FOR HIM.......PSALM 37:7 Waiting has always been hard for me --It is hard to quiet my mind and hear the Lord speak to me in every tear drop-and trust that one day I too shall be healed with no open wounds. I still hurt but I know that the Lord is doing something to cleanse my wounds- I know that I can still fall down but the Lord will help me up again.

AND GOD SHALL WIPE AWAY ALL THE TEARS FROM THEIR EYES; AND THERE SHALL BE NO MORE DEATH, NEITHER SORROW, NOR CRYING, NEITHER SHALL THERE BE ANY PAIN: FOR THE FORMER THINGS ARE PASSED AWAY. REVELATION 21:4

huggles me, Meme--who is trusting God to keep His word